Music helps lift the soul

So to read my story, you will need a good pair of walking shoes and a decent pair of ear phones, preferably wireless (lol). You probably thinking what an earth does this relate to the story. It doesn’t but it what was helped get me through my journey, those two things and have course; a personally created playlist - on my phone and some great dog walks as l an fortunate to live with the most beautiful, natural surroundings.

In fact, before l left my husband or for a male ego sake certainly for a narcissist, ’when he left me’. I look back then and l have must have realised more than l failed to truely admit to myself, that l was going to have serious problems exiting from this marriage with anything, as l employed the services of a divorce coach, to prep me as much as l could, in the time l had, to ready myself for that ’D’ day.

So, back to my music comment. One of the sessions with this coach included a close with some advise of.... find a song that you can play and relate to, one that does something to moves your soul, lifts your spirit.... something to keep you going on the long slog ahead. I took her advise, it wasn’t hard, music means so much to me anyhow, so does dancing in fact. Anyway, that song choice for me has changed during this laborious journey and l will list them below.

Sorry not sorry - Demi Lovato

At the time, l needed that girl power feeling, oh dear, l know. Singing along to easy lyrics that resonated with me.... no regrets, l am moving on and happy whatever you to do me. Seriously, l probaby looked quite ridiculous bopping with attitude either in the car or whilst, going for one of my walks with my dog.

I Am A Survivor (v briefly) - Destiny Child

the lyrics were exactly ones l could relate to

after ‘the dark side’ (Ex and parents) had tried to fuck with my head, confidence and trust, being with them to leaving them. After seperation and the stealing of my paperwork (you know those files you keep on bank stuff, tax, car stuff.....) most of our (and my own) personal possessions, dealing with threats, aggression and their obsessive, controlling behaviour such as stalking and also being able to know so much so that l realised l was technically comprised as well. But as the Destiny girls sang... I am moving on and not even focusing on blasting you, l sang the words again, strutted with a beat and attitude... ha dancing like Beyonce (lol) and related to it all. During the time, i was trying through the legal system to get them to settle, we even tried privately as well. Whilst they carried on misbehaving, drumming up more legal fights and making up lies about me.

MJB da MVP

This song made me cry every time, silly to refer my life in any way close to this amazing performer, haha but it was how she felt when she wrote this song, came through on her lyrics. the story of how she came out of life’s experiences stronger, better and wiser and thanked those around her who had been truly supportive.

There is some more but that’s for another part of my story.... yet to come.

Have a a good day all

Yours AM xoxo