Learning about inner strength

I have gained different friends along this journey. A male friend confessed what he thought was profound to me. He went into a hiding for a couple of weeks. He couldn’t face his family when he first left. I get it, he had to walk out the house, he owned and leave them, as his wife was having an affair.

Sure l can imagine doing that but what really motivates you to jump out of bed, every day is when you have a multitude of commitments; bills, child, dog And it’s all on you. There is no family to run to... there is just you! And No matter what the ex and his crazy parents throw at you, you stand up for yourself calmly, in front your child. To demonstrate you are not rattled or frightened, also to protect your son. You go home, laugh, love him and the dog and carry on. Sometimes just sometimes, when l didn’t have my son, after the day is done, for a moment, in the dark, l have got drunk enough to numb the feelings and tried to dilute some of the anger l have towards them and more so to myself.

l have had to fight for everything from my son, to convince my side, l am not crazy that l am dealing with stalkers, aggression and also that my son was being abused; mentally and physically and to keep on the shitty journey and still be reasonable but keep going through the joyous legal system. It’s so hard to keep your shit together and not react sometimes but other times, l can quite easily pitty that crazy family as they are so obsessed that they will not leave me alone and disgustingly use my son as an opportunity to continue their harassment.

As l continue with this blog, l will divulge more... promise.

Thx for reading.

AM